Sosic of seeing fat.

i really need to start updating this on a regular basis, even if no one reads it! i always forget about it unfortunatly lol, i tend to do that, even with pills and stuff i will ALWAYS forget to take them when needed.
anyways hahah. i am now 110-111 ! SEVEN POUNDS! lol most of it is of course water weight but hey! that means half of the weight i gained was never actually fat!
think positive cassandra...
think positive.

so. yesterday i had a mini binge, i only call it a binge because everything i ate was junk food, but it was still a little over 1000 calories,but before the binge i also had salad (just lettuce and vinegar for dressing) and 2 carrots. and the day before i fasted. As for today it is 4:37pm. i got home about..hm...30 minutes ago. i had:

1 Can of Tomato and Onion Tuna (suprisingly VERY good! i added some hot sauce because im a fiene for hot sauce..must be because im portuguese ahah, and i also added some black pepper) anyways, the whole can is only 80 calories! which deffinetly isnt to bad. (ill try and find a picture to show you what to look out for if you want to try it!)

This is the shit! quite a bit comes in a small can also!

1 100 Calorie Hershey snacksters, SO good! a little bag full of chocolate and cereal type mixes for only 100 calories, fucking geniouses, there is also reeces pieces (Which are my favourite chocolate bar!)I will also show you a picture of this

(Thats the box i got with both the Hershey and Reeces, but you can buy them seperatly)


so in total i have had 180 calories! it sounds like so much... which is funny because when i binge im like "oh this is 300 calories! im going to eat 3!) i also bought a Sauna Suit, im going to wear that when i go on my treadmill tonight, i may or may not have a 35 calorie yogurt a little later on, it depends. i plan on fasting tomorrow anyways. plus im going on the treadmill tonight.
anyways! hopefully i will be down to atleast 106-108 by the end of the week! i think i can do it! water weight or not! if the number on the scales are dropping im getting lighter!

peace and love bitches.