Son of a bitch!
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Two days down the drain.
today i binged. i dont even want to talk about it, lets just say i had around 1700 calories, YUCK.
tomorrow i gotta start clean by not eating and then who knows for the next day, possibly a couple slices of pineapple. maybe not even.
gross gross gross. BUT i did binge at around 2:00 and then i walked to the gym which is about 20 minutes from my house at 3:30, and i just got back now. i didnt burn many calories at the gym, only around 300.. plus i sat in the sauna to sweat. im so gross, such a damn failure.
(i did try to purge but nothing comes out, i guess my gag reflex is shot! which means i REALLY need to stop binging because i know i wont be able to get it back up if i try, i even drank sea salt water to help bring it up. but NOTHING)
but there is some good news that came out of today, ive grown fond of the taste of water again! hahaha so maybe i will start drinking more of that, then go to the gym everyday and exersize more and go in the sauna. and hope i will get to that lovely number 100.
this morning i was 105. lets hope it doesnt change to much tomorrow morning.. im HOPING it no higher then 107 again.
"Thin is forever. I will do whatever it takes. I want to be thin more then anything, Even food"
today i binged. i dont even want to talk about it, lets just say i had around 1700 calories, YUCK.
tomorrow i gotta start clean by not eating and then who knows for the next day, possibly a couple slices of pineapple. maybe not even.
gross gross gross. BUT i did binge at around 2:00 and then i walked to the gym which is about 20 minutes from my house at 3:30, and i just got back now. i didnt burn many calories at the gym, only around 300.. plus i sat in the sauna to sweat. im so gross, such a damn failure.
(i did try to purge but nothing comes out, i guess my gag reflex is shot! which means i REALLY need to stop binging because i know i wont be able to get it back up if i try, i even drank sea salt water to help bring it up. but NOTHING)
but there is some good news that came out of today, ive grown fond of the taste of water again! hahaha so maybe i will start drinking more of that, then go to the gym everyday and exersize more and go in the sauna. and hope i will get to that lovely number 100.
this morning i was 105. lets hope it doesnt change to much tomorrow morning.. im HOPING it no higher then 107 again.
"Thin is forever. I will do whatever it takes. I want to be thin more then anything, Even food"
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